I want to mean something more. Something major like becoming your world. Maybe if you give half of your world, it would be enough. Here I am, wondering what am I to you actually? What are we? I want to push you away, to see if you're gonna chase. If you don't bother, then I know where I stand. It's our fourth, and I don't want to waste any more time. I don't want to feel anymore aches in my heart and I don't want anymore  awful night thoughts which make me cry to sleep. I don't even know why I keep on holding on and on. Show me if this is all worth it. I don't want to keep on being misled. 

; xoxo Syira A